For the last 7-10 days I’ve been having a bit of a weird mood episode: anxiety, panic attacks, racing thoughts, indecisiveness, restlessness, inability to relax, general muscle tension and disturbed sleep.
Last week I thought it was depression, now I’m veering towards thinking it’s a mixed state. My thoughts aren’t along the severely depressed line, though I would definitely say they’re more negative than usual.
The most debilitating symptom at the moment has been the panic attacks, and yesterday for the first time ever, I had one at home. I usually have them when I’m out in the city or in my previous jobs, so this was a bit of a surprise!
I’m also getting agoraphobia symptoms: anxiety/panic when further away from home/on my own/in crowded places. The anxiety and panic are mild when I’m well, but increase in severity with the presence of a bipolar episode to the point of disrupting regular activities. The following is a very interesting article about Bipolar Disorder and it’s relationship with anxiety. It discusses whether or not it is a symptom of Bipolar or a Separate Condition:
Anxiety and Bipolar Disorder (PsychEducation.org)
Other Articles I’ve Found Useful
Very informative website exclusively about Bipolar Mixed States
Anxiety in Depression & Bipolar Disorder: From McMan’s Depression & Bipolar Web
A bit more dry & intellectual, but still interesting: Comorbidity in Bipolar Disorder from Psychiatric Times
Interesting blog post on My Bipolar Bubble: Separation Anxiety and Bipolar Disorder in Children
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