My absence in posting over the last few months has been due to my increase in focus on spiritual development. The spiritual development classes I have been attending over the last year have really helped me to accept myself more, particularly my intense sensitivity to other’s emotions, the environment, noise, crowds etc. Whereas I used to view myself as anxious in crowds and noise, I now see it as overstimulation of a very sensitive nervous system! I’m also realising that it’s absolutely fine to keep away from these situations.
I have always thought it better to overcome fear of a noisy, stimulating environment, so as not to become more restricted in the activities I participate in. But I now see that I’m not fearful of them, I just don’t enjoy them.
My whole life I’ve been focusing on learning to fit in in the world and to be like everyone else.
I am so damn exhausted of trying!! It just doesn’t work!
I have battled with this sensitivity for so long- always believing it to be a negative trait, therefore something I should correct.
“You’re being oversensitive. You need to toughen up and develop a thicker skin”. This is the most common feedback I’ve gotten.
Training to Manage Sensitivity: Energetic Work
Through my spiritual development group I’ve learned that sensitivity is a gift. It’s taking a while for this to sink in.
To understand that picking up other’s emotions and thoughts is a positive thing requires a total u-turn in my beliefs.
Untrained this empathic quality just means I’m a sponge for everybody elses’ emotions. If I’m in a room with a group of people, I very soon tune in to the “feeling” of the group and my energies drop or rise accordingly. Working with very negative, low energy people day in day out has, no wonder, been such a struggle for me and crippled me with stress, depression and anxiety. There must be so many more people out there like me, who have absolutely no idea that they are soaking up everybody elses’ fears and sorrows, and are being treated for depression and anxiety.
During spiritual development classes, we learn to distinguish between other people’s energies and our own. We then learn techniques to clear away any energy from other people and clean up our own energy.
Boundaries are also very important. We learn to put up energetic protection around us to prevent us picking up others’ energies in the first place. I’m finding this a bit more of a challenge. I thought I’d be able to imagine a boundary around me- like a protective bubble- and it would just keep the energy out. It requires constant reinforcing though, with time and energy put into creating the boundary around me. When I’ve spent time doing this, I really do feel protected and very comfortable around others. Lots more relaxed too.
The tone of the classes is very much one of love, forgiveness and self acceptance. This has probably been more help to me than any Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and my support system has grown to include our teacher and a few of the other class members. Seeing that others have learnt to deal with their sensitivity and are functioning healthily in society is great motivation and inspiration. I feel accepted and therefore am feeling more acceptance of myself- a total gift!!
Please visit Mental Health Talk for my recent guest post: Bipolar and High Sensitivity.
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