Hi, I’m Rachel, I’m 34, and I’ve been treated for Bipolar II Disorder since I was 18.

Bipolar first reared it’s ugly head when I moved away from home to university, where I lasted 6 weeks before severe depression took over. My first hypomanic episode was diagnosed about 3 years later.

My New Perspective.

However I have always believed that I have symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder and have issues with Social Anxiety and Panic Disorder!! Because of the overwhelming number of diagnoses we could possibly have, I now believe it is more beneficial to look at each individual’s symptoms as a whole, rather than as clusters which can be identified as a particular disorder. As far as I am concerned now, I have an emotional disorder with very high sensitivity!!

But I don’t believe that we are incarnated here on earth to suffer with these disorders- but to instead look at the messages therein. Perhaps we are learning to outgrow old karmic family patterns or serving individual karma. Perhaps we are just different and are showing the world that it’s OK to need peace and a quiet life and indulge in our creative dreams.

Time For Change.

2012 became the year I quit a job that was contributing to a big increase in Bipolar symptoms and found my passion for spiritual development. I’m on a new journey of self-love, forgiveness and acceptance, to discover who the real me is and figure out how I can contribute meaningfully to the world.

Twilight Fantasy

Twilight Fantasy

I am also nurturing my creative self by revisiting my love of drawing, please see my gallery.

With the help of Spirit I am growing stronger and stronger and believe that by working with Spirit, I can be of help to others who have had similar experiences to me. I am 100% passionate about promoting spiritual healing as a solution to mental health issues.

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  2. JJ Burgess

    Hi! I found your great blog in doing a search on “bipolar” and “self-forgiveness.” I love what you said and can really identify with it!

    Here’s to being who we truly are….

    1. rachelmiller1511 Post author

      Thank you so much, it’s so great to hear when someone really identifies with what’s been written. I just think being who we truly are is one of the most important things in life, even if we are really different!

      Thanks again for your kind comment.


  3. Jen

    I share your same battles and fiction choices too. Are you on goodreads? So we can freak each other out further with similarities… x

  4. sophie

    Hi, I came across your blog and it worries me because im scared I have the same thing. Ive often thought about it but never really done anything about it, I have horrible days where I think everyone at works hates me, that they think Im awful at my job and that everyone is bitching about me. I also eat excessivly when im on my own and I spend too much money and am in incredible denial about alot of things. I have always known I dont think the same as everyone else but im scared to do something about it…I feel depressed at the moment but I cant explain it properly to anyone.

    1. rachelmiller1511 Post author

      Hello Sophie,

      Thank you so much for getting in touch.

      Have you heard about the HIghly Sensitive Person (HSPs)? Have a little look into HSPs first- I’m an HSP too, as are a few others of the regular commenters on my blog. I have a few posts about high sensitivity, here’s one that you might relate to:

      You’re So Sensitive: https://rachelmiller1511.wordpress.com/2012/05/09/youre-so-sensitive/

      If you’re feeling depressed I would definitely recommend going to see your doctor- if you haven’t already. Explaining how you feel can be very daunting, but doctors are very understanding of depression these days- they see a lot of it! You’ve described really well here how you feel- tell that to your doctor. Try and be really honest about how bad things can get for you. They will take everything into consideration. There are a couple of diagnoses you might possibly fit into- but I’d definitely look into high sensitivity first!

      The things you describe sound very like me- paranoia at work, eating excessively- but hiding it, spending too much etc. I think we often suppress a lot of pain we’ve been through. I really, really hope you can get some help.

      If you want to chat some more I can give you my email address, I’d be happy to help :).


  5. bipolarmoms

    Hi Rachel. I’m new to blogging in the hope that I can connect with others who have BP. I identify with a lot about what you’re written in your blog; you cover a wide spectrum of topics. I’ll be back to visit regularly. I admire your honesty. Mental illness is not an easy topic to write about.

    1. rachelmiller1511 Post author

      Hi bipolarmoms!

      Thanks for reading and saying hi. It’s great that you’ve decided to start blogging about Bipolar- I think you’ll find the blogging community is extremely supportive! 🙂

      I’m glad you can identify with some of what I’ve written- that’s why I wanted to blog, so people can come together in understanding and support each other.

      Looking forward to reading your blog.


  6. sakuraandme

    Hi Rachel,
    Thanks for checking out my blog! Like to see what others dealing with Bipolar, how they handle situations. All for 1 and 1 for all.!!!! Lol
    Love Paula x

  7. Denise Condon

    hi Rachel – I have been reading your blog for a few months now. I admire your spirit. I have just started my own website about Generalized Anxiety Disorder and have put a link to your site in one of my blogs. I hope you don’t mind.
    Thanks, Denise

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  9. kissmeunderthepinkblossomtree

    Hello Rachel,

    I wanted to say a big “thank you” for choosing to follow my blog, I feel honoured.

    I have read some of your posts and you have inspired me, I admire people that write another their own personal experiences, you are so brave.

    Bless your heart!

    1. rachelmiller1511 Post author

      Aw bless you! I connected with your spirituality, anxiety/OCD and love the pinkness and flowers of your blog!!

      That was a very quick response to my follow!!

      Have a great day xxx

  10. Rachael

    If you’re not still using this blog you need to! I just came across it and it feels as if I have found exactly what I needed to forgive myself and move forward. I have been diagnosed with depression,and anxiety with bipolar tendencies. I’m not quite sure what that means yet, but I’ve been working with my therapist to try to figure out my proper diagnosis.


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