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A World Changed- What do We Need to Do?

Whether or not you are particularly spiritual, oracle cards can be a fun focus for personal development, and more often than not you’ll find yourself pulling out cards randomly and finding that they relate accurately to issues that are currently at play in your life. Many cards come with little books that offer interpretations, but you’ll likely find ideas present themselves to you as you think about the card, or journal out your thoughts.

Like the rest of the world, I’ve recently been drawn in to the media to keep up to date with the latest COVID-19 developments. This morning I really wanted to get my cards out and connect with Spirit to find out why the virus is happening, and how I can help.

There was me expecting that I could offer channeled wisdom for the collective, when Spirit firmly put me in my place with a wink and a nudge, and all the cards strongly suggested to retreat, be alone, connect with Spirit, and focus on my health. I practically laughed out loud, as my grand thoughts were so way off base! I love that our guides and angels can make us laugh at ourselves, they can be so playful.

“Turn off the TV.
Turn off the internet.
Remember what I love.
Remember who I am.
Go and play the flute and piano, and sing, and spend time with my husband and dog.
Get in touch with myself through journalling and meditating.
Go get the paints out.
Have fun.”

This is a prime time to remember what is important to us. The majority of us at the moment are waiting for the uncertainty to unfold. It is easy to be gripped by fear and glued to the news. ( I, for one, can get very obsessive and my own mental health can easily start to spiral out of control).

The message is to go within, and to focus on our own little worlds. We have power here to affect change through our attitudes and hearts. Yes, we have some power! We don’t have to let ourselves feel so powerless. Little deeds of love lift vibrations in our little worlds. Little deeds of love include loving ourselves as much as anyone else and cultivating the things we love in our lives- for me this is music, art and spiritual development, as well as the more obvious relationships. If we take care of ourselves, we are in a much better condition to help others with our hearts wide open. Helping from a place of fatigue and with a closed heart is not really helping to uplift the vibration- as well as feeling bad ourselves, those who we are “helping” can sense this and easily feel guilty and that they are being a burden. Not very helpful for the collective vibration.

My own feelings are that the economy and world leadership are going to change considerably.

Our lives are going to be led less by consumerism, individual success, and power, and more by communities and family life. We will all be reminded of how rich our lives truly are, and that we have so much to share with other people.

There will be much more focus on wholeness, and oneness. I think this is why we are being brought back to ourselves. Being whole starts with each one of us individually. When we are healing from past traumas, events, relationships, abuse, disappointments, or losses, the fractured parts of our soul are being brought back together and making peace with each other. We are forgiving ourselves, learning to love ourselves. Wholeness starts within each of our hearts- with unconditional love for ourselves. This time is one of great opportunity to heal our own soul. A world full of healed hearts is a place of peace, not one of war. There will always be challenges for we need them to grow, but this is a chance to step forward into the light, up one rung of the ladder towards a more peaceful, harmonious world.

Already we are being reminded of our oneness- every continent is being affected by the same virus, by the same problems. We are all together in this and for the first time I can remember, it feels as if the world is joined by one thing. Let it be that this virus does not destroy us, but helps our hearts grow in light, for love is not a fluffy emotion, but the strongest, most powerful force we can imagine.



Dealing With Unkindness

An underhanded, sarcastic comment threw me last night. It was clearly aimed at me and full of passive-aggression. Only those “in the know” would have understood it- there were a few sniggering looks between those people. Flashback to school and similar experiences. Within seconds I was panicking and questioning- “was that aimed at me?”, “did she really say that?”, “am I just being crazy?”.

It’s those subtle remarks that really set off self-doubt in what I am perceiving and how I’m interpreting it. When other people around you don’t notice anything, you have nobody to validate your way of perceiving what happened, so you continually question and doubt yourself, all the while trying to deal with any emotions that automatically switch on- mainly anxiety, later anger.

In the past- mainly school and work environments- people have always said to me “you’re too sensitive”, “you need a thicker skin”. I don’t agree with that. If I lose my sensitivity, I lose my ability to love deeply, to experience deeply, my innate spirituality, my creativity, my passion. These are things I now see as gifts. It’s taken a long time as I previously believed that yes, I was too sensitive and should learn to be like everybody else. Maybe because I’m sensitive I am also kinder, more compassionate and empathic? In my opinion these are definitely qualities that need to be out there in the world.

But I would like to be less afraid of being hurt. I am so scared of harsh comments, criticism, unkindness and bullying, that I isolate myself enormously.

I think to feel more protected I must love myself so much, and be so involved with serving a purpose in the world, that these comments or unkindness’s just roll off my back, because I’m so into loving and living my life, that I barely take any notice.

When other people behave unkindly I think it is also a good warning sign to keep them out of my life, and to spend time with much kinder folk. There is a strange part of me that is determined to get involved with unkindness and show those that have hurt me that I didn’t deserve it, or to change the person’s view of me to something more positive. My ego views other people’s opinions of me as so important that they are the ones that form my view of myself- my whole identity, so any negative comments coming my way are seen by my ego as major attacks on my psyche.

The more conscious part of me knows that it is my own opinion of myself that matters. It is good to take others’ views of myself into consideration when they are coming from somebody who knows me well, loves me, and is honest and truthful, but nobody has the power to dictate my identity. It happened in childhood- it’s a pattern now that I will break. As a child it was about survival- be the person my parents/teachers want me to be to avoid abandonment. That’s in its most basic form. But I don’t need to do that anymore. I am safe. I will not abandon myself anymore.

The Magical Faerie Door

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Wow, it’s been such a long time since I posted!! Lots has happened: I got engaged, we’ve been wedding planning, and most recently I’ve had my illustrations published in an enchanting children’s book by visionary author Michelle Louise Gordon, a lady with truly magical powers!

The Magical Faerie Door has been written for readers aged 8-12 years old, but has also proved popular with adults too! It follows Lily: given a faerie door as a gift, she embarks on an adventure to help save a faerie kingdom!

It’s so exciting to see my illustration on the cover, and inside too. I’ve been so blessed to meet Michelle, who not only is extremely talented, but a beautiful person both inside and out.

You can order your copy here if you live in the UK.

Outside the UK, the book is available on Amazon here, but you can also order via email: theamethystangel@hotmail.co.uk.

Kindle editions are also available.

Links

Michelle Louise Gordon.

The Magical Faerie Door UK orders.

The Magical Faerie Door Amazon UK .

The Magical Faerie Door Amazon US.

Rachel Miller Art & Illustration on Facebook.

Michelle Louise Gordon on Facebook.

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Bach Flower Remedies for Depression: Mustard & Gentian

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Fear, and Steven Spielberg.

ID-10035460I’ve been doing way too much thinking recently- probably worrying more like! It strikes me how small my world is- I’ve let it shrink because I’ve been afraid. There are things I’ve legitimately let go of because they just didn’t work in my life, but there are also things I’ve given up on because they were scary and uncomfortable, even though I could see my world becoming more colourful and, well….bigger!

Spiritual Development Group: A Legitimate Letting Go?

For example, at the beginning of the year I began a Spiritual Development Group in my home. In total I had 3 people join. This was as I was expecting as there is not much call for these kind of groups- they’re pretty specialist. During the group sessions, I taught a bit about chakras and some of the meditation techniques, then we’d do a relaxation and practice the meditation techniques. After that we might do oracle readings for each other, or I’d teach more about Bach Flower Remedies or Crystals.

I really did enjoy the teaching part.

What I didn’t enjoy was the organisation and anxiety. I never knew who and how many people were coming, and for someone who is a little bit of a control freak, this was a little bit scary. I worried that one person might turn up and I’d have to do a one on one session for the small group price (one on one can be intense), or that they’d be two, and that wouldn’t really be enough. I’d only really be happy if there were 3-5 members there. I didn’t like people missing any teaching as I’d have to go over it next time. That was annoying. Then I worried that I wasn’t good enough, that I was a fraud. I worried that someone would attribute any poor health that came their way to my sessions, and then sue me. I worried that other people thought I was weird and that they were laughing at me behind my back.

I one of the group members challenging- her energy was very strong and I felt uncomfortable around her,

I basically worried and worried. Then that worrying blocked my connection with Spirit- I wasn’t trusting Spirit, or hearing what I needed to know for the classes. Then I worried about this! It would have gone on forever.

I cancelled the group. I was spending so much time worrying that I lost faith in myself and also questioned my enjoyment and whether or not it was the right thing for me to be doing at this time.

Did I legitimately cancel the group? I think so. It really wasn’t working for me and it didn’t feel quite right. Maybe it just wasn’t the right time. I didn’t feel a love for it.

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At around the same time, I also stepped out of my comfort zone to teach flute. A teacher who was moving away had recommended me as a suitable replacement for her to a few of her pupils.

Of course I worried about this too! I questioned my skills as a flautist, and whether I’d get on with the pupil. I’d never taught flute before! I felt more confident about my teaching skills as I think I’ve been building these up over the years. I really do enjoy teaching.

Anyway- I loved it! My pupil was wonderful too and we’ve had a successful 9 months together so far.

But I still get a bit scared! Every time we have a lesson I’ll be a bit nervous beforehand. It’s still a bit scary. But I love it, so I push through! I think the fear is of the unknown, and how the lesson will progress, or fear that I’ll somehow mess up. The unknown isn’t controllable or certain. It’s about trusting the process, trusting my skills, trusting my pupil, and trusting Spirit.

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It was Steven Spielberg who got me thinking about this today, or rather an interview with him on the documentary ‘Spielberg’.

He was talking about how he still felt anxious before he went to shoot a scene with a room full of actors and crew. He didn’t know how the shoot would go, or what problems he’d encounter and how he’d solve them.

I couldn’t believe this!! Hollywood mega-giant Steven Spielberg felt frightened initially when going on set to shoot a new scene! He’s a directing genius, a directing god!! How on earth could he possibly be frightened!! Wow!!

He went on to say that he liked this fear- it was a good fear. He said if he felt comfortable and confident about what he was shooting then he didn’t strive to go that extra distance, or put in that extra bit of energy. He tried harder. He said he produced his best work when he felt this fear, even panic! It was like he had made friends with it. He loved what he was doing so much that he pushed through. He trusted Spirit/the Universe. He trusted himself and his crew. He trusted that his fear was going to help him as, of course, it did and still does.

A Bigger World!

Steven Spielberg’s world gets bigger every time he trusts and creates. My world has gotten pretty small and I want to expand it! I want to trust and to believe and to be brave. I want to create a more magical world for myself- one where I create everyday, and bring out the world that is inside me- bring out the heaven in my mind and give it life on earth.

I am learning to trust, and I am learning to be brave.

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My Magical World

 

 

Grenfell Tower: A Shaken Faith

On Wednesday the UK was shaken by it’s fourth major tragedy this year. We’ve had two terrorist attacks in London, one in Manchester, and now the Grenfell Tower fire in London, which looks like it will have claimed the lives of more than the previous three events combined.

Today I posted on Facebook:

” The difference in the response on my Facebook feed to the Grenfell Tower disaster compared with the recent terrorist attacks is huge. It is so much easier for us to blame tragedy on a group full of hate for us, than our own government and systems. Is our unity in grief only restricted to white people? Really, in 2017? It is highly likely the death toll from Grenfell Tower will exceed 60, according to the press. This is greater than the number of those killed in all three terrorist attacks in Britain so far this year. The people of Grenfell tower are British citizens too. They are human too. They feel the same suffering. It is events like this that shake my faith, but I know all I can do is pray for those whose lives have been shaken to the core. I hope that the voice given to the people of Grenfell Tower will finally be listened to, and that this will be the start of greater equality in the UK. We are all one people.”

What I wrote doesn’t really compare with the anger I feel inside, that this kind of thing can even happen.

I am usually all about finding the grace and love of God in all things. But this tragedy has shaken my faith. I feel so angry with God. Why did You let this happen? Something so horrific. The terror and pain these people endured is more than I can bare thinking about. Why weren’t You there? Why didn’t You stop it?

Most of the books I read on spiritual topics describe the angels if God as unable to intervene in our lives unless we ask them too, or a fixed plan made before we incarnated has been predetermined and must not be altered.

I do believe this, but it is so far removed from the suffering endured- it is difficult to integrate. The angels can see, God can see.

I can only hope that those killed or badly injured passed out very quickly, so as not to feel pain, and that those who have crossed over are given as much help as possible by God and the angels to heal.

I don’t understand. I’ll probably never understand and my analytical brain doesn’t like that. But I have to let this go, or it will eat me up inside.

Dear God,

Thank you for surrounding those affected by the Grenfell Tower fire in love and light. Thank you for the abundant healing and aid. Thank you for the fantastic emergency services in this country who help save lives.

Thank you for helping our country become more unified, and equality among the rich and poor, and those of different faiths and nations, be vastly improved. Thank you that good may come from this.

Thank you for helping me to be at peace. Thank you for helping anybody else effected be at peace.

Thank you for loving me in my anger with You. Thank you for Your endless patience and compassion.

Amen.

 

10 Lies Depression Tells You

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10 Lies Depression Tells You

1. You’re not good enough: at anything.

2. You’ve failed: at everything.

3. You’re a burden on your family/partner: they’d be better off without you.

4. You don’t deserve such a great partner.

5. You don’t deserve all the good things that have been given to you- they’ll be taken away from you.

6. God doesn’t care about you- he’s given up on you.

7. There’s nothing in your future to look forward to.

8. You’ll always fail.

9. You might as well give up.

10. It’s Your Fault You’re Depressed: you’ve done all the CBT, mindfulness, counselling, etc. You should be free from depression by now. It must be you- you’re bad.

They are lies! They are not truth! We can change our thoughts!

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Bach Flower Remedies: Stabilising Your Mood

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Bach Flower Remedies have helped me a lot with stabilising my mood, as a supplement to my regular medication.

You can find out more about Bach Flower Remedies on my sister website, Emotional Wellness, here:

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Glenyss Bourne’s artwork can be found here: http://www.anaheart.com/

Doreen Virtue’s website: http://www.angeltherapy.com/

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