I’m not working at the moment due to depression. The thing is, I actually have plenty of stuff I could do right now, I’m just bogged down in that depressive lack of motivation phase and don’t feel my normal joyful enthusiasm for life.
I guess I’ve motivated myself enough to even write a little blog post, so that’s something positive!
How do you fire yourself up again, when you feel so little interest in anything?
I feel like it’s my fault that I’m bored and that I’m stupid to let myself get to this point. Then I look at what I’ve just written and think how harsh I’m being on myself. There’s some wonky thinking in there!
Okay, how do I get over this one?
My spiritual development teacher would say to be gentle with myself, accept the feelings that are coming up, notice the thoughts without judging them.
Feeling lack of motivation and interest is a symptom of depression and has naturally occurred as part of my experience.
Boredom seems to present this empty pit of nothingness and numbness inside me.
I want nothing more than to fight it off and get it away from me, but I know that’s not going to work. I know I have to sit with the feelings and be kind to myself. These feelings may be exceedingly uncomfortable to me, but it is safe to feel them.
Deep down do I believe that if I am bored, then I am boring?
Do I believe that I have failed in some terrible way by allowing myself to be bored when there are so many things to do, so many people to help in the world? That my life is worthless?
Maybe this is where the boredom has come from- believing that I am worthless therefore I can make no meaningful contribution to the world, so why bother?
I could probably go round and round in circles pulling this apart psychologically, but I don’t think it will help! So I think I’ll aim for distraction for a while.
This year I find myself questioning more and more the concept of gift-giving. Am I really giving a gift when what I am really doing is fulfilling somebody else’s expectation that they receive a gift from me- and vice versa I guess?
I love buying presents! I love the aha moment of- “oh this person would love this gift!” Then I feel I’m truly giving from the heart.
Maybe it isn’t the gift-giving itself, but rather the way I shop that makes it feel a bit mechanical- sounds a bit weird! Maybe it would feel more fun going to small businesses and craft stalls to buy presents. Maybe I’m just giving this too much thought LOL!
Anyway I think I’m getting a bit mind-spinny from all the shopping and could do with some general calming-down. So today I’m going to be meditating, playing the piano and drawing, amidst a bit of present-wrapping. Need some mind-cooling, right-brained, creative activity. If you haven’t read this fab article about the over-heated mind, I think it fits in very nicely with hypomania & obsessive, racey-thoughts in general:
I’m thinking peaceful thoughts from now on and remembering to keep grounded.
Bach Flower Remedies which really help to keep the hypomanic-type mind balanced and calm:
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Bach Flower Remedies: For Depression, Anxiety & Hypomania.
This can literally lead to the soul rising upwards so that it is partially out of our bodies. This will make us feel light-headed, dizzy and almost not-there, like we are in a dreamworld. We are ungounded. It is my opinion that dissociation stems from this state.
Our souls incarnated here on earth out of choice. We chose to be here. It may seem like a hefty deal when we are very depressed and we may think “why would I choose to be in so much pain?”
We chose to be here now to release karma and to learn. Our souls have a higher plan, nothing like that of our personalities on earth. Our souls long for a reunion with the unconditional love they were birthed from. No wonder we feel so depressed when we deal with much of the pain that is broadcast on the news, or with the negativity that may surround us.
To find inner peace we can learn to surrender our egos to unconditional love from Spirit. Simple, not easy. It takes time and work on self-and spiritual-development
It is important for our souls to be 100% in our bodies so that we remain grounded.
When we are ungrounded we may experience all sorts of unpleasant symptoms including mood swings, energetic swings included extreme tiredness, binge eating (we literally need the heaviness to feel grounded), we hold on to negative emotions (yours or other people’s), distractability and tension. These are just a few.
So you can see how important it is for our soul to remain fully grounded in our bodies.
It is essential for our own health and balance that we remain grounded. To do this imagine roots leaving the soles of your feet and burrowing their way to the centre of the earth. Make the roots thick and strong. You should begin to feel heavier as if gravity is pulling you downwards more strongly. Really relax into the feeling.
Other methods of grounding include doing grounded activities: housework, gardening, walks in nature, physical exercise (yoga is excellent), dancing, etc.
Grounding aids include crystals such as Hematite, Black Tourmaline and Smokey Quartz, which you can keep in your pocket, or hold whilst meditating. Personally I find hematite is pure magic and I feel pulled to the ground like a magnet.
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After a lovely bout of PMS last week I thought it might be handy to share the Bach Flower Remedies I find most helpful to ease the symptoms.
Impatiens: for impatience with others.
Beech: for when you feel you want to verbally lash out at someone.
Holly: calms anger/aggression.
For Low Mood:
Mustard: relieves depression.
Olive: revitalises when you are shattered.
Cherry Plum: for when you feel out of control or worry that you will lose control.
Bach Rescue Remedy is an alternative option- it will aid in balancing the emotions.
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